:: First steps August 7, 2008Posted by Minci 先生 in Everyday Life.
It’s taking that very first step is always the hardest.
Im terribly anxious to select the top 3 places I intend to pursue my housemanship training in. The feeling is no where near like when I started my medical training – excited, syiokkk. Now, it’s like butterflies in the stomach, heavy hands, lemah. Adding on fear and nervousness, WORK doesnt sound so good at the moment.
And already I’ve got Mother’s friends pestering me to do part time in one of the clinics. Ello makcik2.. jangan masuk campur boleh? I baru balik ke sini. Nanti bila I dah start keje, sibuk suruh I cuti.
Yes, the first step is always the hardest. I put this anxiety down to these reasons;
- The places I had in mind are far. Really far. The choice made for personal reasons. New places calls for active adjustments.
- Unlike departing for Manchester WITH familiar friends, Im making the journey alone. Im setting up my life in these places alone. SOLO. Unless the new buddies I manage to hook up with during the induction course are going to the same places. He he. (It’s STF all over again!!)
- FIRST MEDICAL JOB!! Arghhh..bottom of the food chain!! Great.. 😦 and I havent studied enough. HUhu. (well..sampai bila pun takkan cukup punya)
- Whatever the course of my life afterwards, starts from this point in time.
Wish me luck.