:: XRaylah hatiku February 2, 2009Posted by Minci 先生 in Everyday Life, Housemanship Training.
Its part and parcel of life to be told off by seniors once we’ve done something wrong or not taking appropriate action. That, I can accept. After all, what we know as HO’s is probably less than 1% of what these learned people know. But to have a fellow colleague of the same HO status to label your referral with any word other than wise, is just … hmph. Entahlah … I thought that because we’re all in the same boat, we should at least make each of our lives easier. If I have done anything to make his/her life crappy.. then teach me how to fix it. Make me as competent as you. Guide me so I wont repeat the mistake.
For someone who has never done a vÄginal ExaminatiÖn (VË) during medical school, I therefore would like to give myself a pat on the back and congratulate myself for having known what the cervix feels like. Better still, being able to differentiate the diameter of the os from a 2cm to a 3cm.
*Sigh*I feel slightly better now having given an acknowledgement to myself that I have improved in one way or the other. To be able to know that you have room for improvements and have made the necessary steps in achieving that does make you feel motivated in overcoming future challenges. It is because you know that you’re not that dumb and it wasnt a waste of money to study in established medical schools. It gives some form of temporary reassurance that you are capable of learning more difficult things and be good at it.
I suppose that was why as medical students, we were taught the importance of Reflection in our learning. Apart from being able to call better judgements in the future when faced with the same scenario, I suppose the alternative message there is for yourself to appreciate your own effort and accomplishment when others are not doing that for you.
Finally, this is my fridge. It’s terribly empty. Im emanciated. I have scurvies!!